Moving, set-backs, victories and much more.
Hey sweet friend, Sorry I fell off the face of the planet there for a spell. I had convinced myself that not sharing my junk was the healthiest thing I could do. Plus, grown-ups always told me if I had nothing nice to not say it at all. Therefore, I hid, I hid myself in the "disasters" of life. Waiting for the day that I could write you and tell you everything is perfect. Unfortunately if there's one thing I've learned in my 2+ years of ministry it is that nothing is ever perfect and I'm tired of making it seem that way on all fronts especially social media. I desire a life that is raw, authentic and marked by the highest peaks and standing triumphant in the lowest and darkest valleys. I dream of a life filled with adventures which doesn't always mean traveling (I have come to learn). I want to be transparent with you, honest and vulnerable. You deserve to see every corner of what the Lord is doing in me, around me and through me.
The past month or so hasn't been the easiest, I can't lie. Trying to get all my residency stuff moved over was a process that left me crying in my car more times than I'd care to admit. Everyone was telling me a thousand different things, each time I would go in to the DMV they would send me out with something else I needed to complete. I am relieved to announce that after, what was it, 11 times of trying I officially have both my plates and my driver's license. In Texas you must have your license plates before you get your driver's license but I had to wait for my mom to come out because she co-signed with me when I bought my car. On top of that I had made a mistake and thought that my Driver's License expired 10 days after it actually did. Therefore because I was from out of state and under the age of 25 I had to take a 6 hour Driver's Education course, a Texas specific 1 hour course and do a behind the wheel driving test. I am so glad I nanny for a family who extended so much grace and let me take as much time as I needed to get everything done. It was totally humbling to have that many no's told to you when you are trying so hard. On top of the no's from the DMV, I also found myself crying in the car after my first meeting with a private agency about Foster Care. This agency was top of my list as far as who I wanted to work with. Unfortunately, due to some outstanding circumstances, I no longer feel that it'd would be in my best interest to continue to pursue licensing through them. I am currently working on finding a new organization that will be willing to have a 21 year old single foster mom (which is legal in the state of Texas). I'm praying that the organization I end up with will know that the children deserve nothing but the best and that the kiddos will be their number one priority! All my love, Carmen